Half a taco...

I am praying for the safe return of Madeleine McCann.  I also cant help but have these feelings. Maddie is one of three kids born with the help of IVF.  Her parents are lovely, albeit, naïve people who apparently, did not get the following memo:  "You are parents, your life is over"  I thought of this the other night.  My meme asked her daughter for a taco. You know those lil ones, w/ steak?  Two bites, maybe three.  Anyways she handed her #mom half a taco. That's it! We laughed.  Maddie's  folks went out to dinner, as you know, and someone took their kid. Someone said lets leave the kids alone, and no one said ...wait, that's not a good idea.  I don't want to make them feel bad, im sure they have REplayed it over n over in their minds.  Apparently, they didn't trust a baby sitter, and checked on the kids every 30 minutes.  I cannot fathom them leaving the door unlocked. When I heard that, I screamed at the tv...were you trying to lose them???   Thirty minutes is a long time for three toddlers.  I don't know if the room was child proofed ...is that a word?  Good lord there are plugs and knives and hot water....the mind wanders off to a not so pretty trail. Going to two restaurants, alone, in peace, is not an option, you have right now. You could have hired a sitter and brought them all to dinner.  Anyways, hindsight is 20/20....xx #love #book

Always heartbreaking...

for a child to lose a parent too soon Never a good time. Telling your child their parent is dead is the hardest thing you will ever do.........xx Love and prayers ... Bobbi Kristina #WhitneyHouston

What 911 meant to me xx

It meant that other kids lost their dads too! Some lost their moms and parents lost their kids. 911 meant to me that i could not just cry for my kids and feel bad for my kids. I had to feel badly for all children who lost their parents that day. It's been 19 yrs for us. If i had one wish, in this whole world, it would be for my kids to have their dad ..... and maybe if i wish really hard.... all children, everywhere! xx

LOOKING BACK....

I dont care much for Holidays anymore. They use to be my whole life and i miss them. End of year holidays are the worst, as i tend to look back on my life. The last few years have been a living hell. Lots of pain and loss. But to look on the bright side.... a few good things did happen. My oldest bought me clothes. My son is speaking to his ex. My daughter got a new car... i get to drive around in. Hopefully this will be my year to shine. I miss my parents, especially my mom. I have to be my own good advice, my own cheerleader. I need to stretch their love for me forever......................its ok there is enough to go around! xx

Bill the Family

My heart goes out to any family with a loss. Especially when parents have to bury a child late in life. Just like any other family , i expect them to pay the funeral bill. Record sales are through the roof and that should help. After all he had extreme wealth and extreme opportunities. More than any of us will ever have. Record sales are through the roof, he gets another chance. xx