While watching the #sandusky trial, things became clear to me.  All of the things about me, that aren't normal, come down to one thing.  Being molested.  I wonder how many girls were molested at Pickwick pool that day? Or at the Jewish community center, where they brought in snow, for us, to play in. I use to blame my ADHD for bad choices.  Now i know it is because of YOU, my molester. #Dr.Drew.  That's why i am overweight and diets don't work.  That is why, i married the first guy that came along.  It is why i pick, or use to pick ...the wrong prople, to have around.  It is probably why i dont wear a bra very often.  I thought it was OCD or the fact, that i hate to wear clothes, anyways. Maybe a disconnect with my body. I dont know. All of my life i suffered from low self esteem.  Once YOU had YOUR way with me, no man ever really wanted me.  I have spent my life alone, because of YOU. YOU made me hate myself for something, i had no control of.  I always say my ex sis in law ruined my life ...and she did, for ten long years.  Actually it was YOU that ruined my life...had YOU not had YOUR way with me i never would have loved her in the first place...xx