Brutal

year of poverty and fighting. They won't sell or hustle but there is always time for a fight. The past year we have had four fights just about race. That is insane, as I only hate white people right now ...I am white. I am so not a racist, I don't even use the word, boy! I see it on IG all the time, more n more. It reminded me of 25 years ago, hearing my friend say "boy" over n over! I told my kids, that is what they called the slaves...no way am I a racist. Ever since my daughter's BF rolled up in absolutely nothing...all we do is fight. I am just trying to work in peace! #om I pray every day for a life on my own! #work #pray #work #pray

God Knows...

if I got up at 3am...drove 2 hrs to work, pour cement 8 hrs... another 2 hours, for the drive home...I'd be too tired to say one word, to anyone! I'd #bee #dead on the #threshold xx #book

tweet Tori! xx iwon

 I won a contest on Tori's blog.  @torianddean  ediTORIal...why?  Because I didn't give up!  I got a #tweet from Tori Spelling...a dream come true!  xx   ipray   iwork   ihope  idream..I am #teamtori  #torigirl  #workAngel  #tnx

Random Reality xx

Watched Hook Line and Sisters. Hard working family, commercial fishing. I was curious to see their way of life. Not sure why anyone would live in Alaska, guess someone has to. Dont get me wrong they have my REspect. The most interesting part to me is Memry's name, still working on it. America's Supernanny is great, but i think she overestimated the Sheckle quads. Hard and crazy to watch as she nearly wipes out four cute kids and two perfectly good lesbians. No mat, chair or designated area........just a random space on a wall. I think they should be in separate corners, with less words, being used, but im no Supernanny. xx

Thankful for enemies xx

I never thought i needed any enemies. Once they arrived i didnt know what to do with them! Then Joel Osteen explained why they are so important. They help make us what we are. If i were never hated, i never would have become what i am today. I had to dig deep, deeper deeper. Constantly working on me, REinventing me, Pushing me. I can finally say, thanks to my enemies.........xx

Your Windshield....xx

What's in your windshield? What's in your future? My windshield holds...God, work, money, family, Joel Osteen, Tori Spelling, Anthony, Jenn, Inventori LA, The White's, love and forgiveness!

Finally ever after xx

I would never say I am happy.........cuz then it all goes to heck. But....things are better for me, thank God. Ten and a half long years, I pushed and climbed, moving forward as fast as I could. Joel Osteen explains there is a 2 step fwd, 3 back. Oh good! I thought I was going to lose my mind. I learned patience, that's for sure! I had so many areas to piece together... like a quilt. Socially, financially, family.... so many set backs. I never gave up, I keep on going! I work hard and pray harder. I follow Joel Osteen...I made some amazing friends. Finally blessed, after all! xx

WOW!

Now im on Twitter, Cafe mom, My Space, FB........so much work for the work! Next Year... Jen's List, Bag Lady Promos, Ultimate biz cards. Gonna be all over the place! Will keep you posted! xx

Doing dishes!

Summer came and i announced to my family.......im not doing dishes this summer. Not that its hard to throw them in the dishwasher, i was trying to focus my energy on work! So of course the dishwasher broke and there went my help! I dont think i have seen the bottom of the sink all summer. (sigh) So... i just went in there and did a bunch, but have to say...no one ever got rich or famous doing dishes!

Persistant

Someone called me that the other day. I took it as a compliment but didnt fully realize the impact of that word. Maybe it isnt even the right word, as if my work was optional. At my age with no parents, spouse or siblings , it's all on me to take care of me. No safety net i fly through the air hoping to catch the bar as it's thrown to me. Persistant yes, determined, yes, crazy...probably. I just keep going, i dont look down, i focus on the catch, ... i work without a net. xx